Alone and waiting this ship I sail Greater depths of doldrums ne’er been Blistering sun, charring skin Nor whisper of wind–He let us fail Stagnant sails surface doubt On this course I chart anew Rumblings from the misfit crew Misfits and seekers, all the louts Return us not Onto craggy shores Though still waters not … Read more
Dance in the delight Of doubt. Find comfort Shrouded in arms of ambiguity. Grasp firm with fatigued fingers of faith, A lead weight. An anchor she sinks. To the depths Of the sea. Drop with her, and sink Down the dancing depths of doubt. Her resting place. Her home. Allow … Read more
Pull me through the darkness. I am numb to feeling anything: happy, sad, joy, anger, grief. Numb to feeling. Joy has escaped me–it’s left my body, taken a midnight bus to anywhere but here and taken the fine china of life with it. Why am I feeling so numb and empty? Help me feel again. … Read more
Surrender is letting go. Surrender is diving deep into the unknown. As I settle into a meditation, several minutes pass and the chatter slows while monkey stops jumping from thought limb to thought limb–surrendering my waking mind to the next layer below. I see water circling a drain. It is pulling with great force and … Read more
Surrender to the void. I don’t exactly know how to do this. It’s coming from somewhere deep within to surrender to the void and my day-to-day mind (my ego) is trying to put steps and order and logic into this force. This force doesn’t want to be bothered with steps and logic. It’s on a … Read more
A VOICE FROM WITHIN A fog is lifting. The sand is wet from the receding tide and previous night’s rain. Waves crash against the beach as monoliths scatter the coastline. It’s dark and gray. The sky, the sand, the rocks, the water all emote a gray hue. I’m alone on the beach except for the … Read more